I thought I knew all of my traits and characteristics after going through so much self-discovery, but I was wrong.
Below are a couple more traits I became more aware of this year.
Traits I Discovered in 2020
I AM A NAGGER
But in a mother/caring kind of way. And not annoying. At least, according to my friend. I don’t know. It’s natural for me to look out for others even when I don’t necessarily say or show it. I’m also not making myself out to be a saint or something. I have my selfish moments, as we all do.
I AM INDEPENDENT, BUT WHEN A FRIEND IS WITH ME, ANY COMMON SENSE OR INDEPENDENCE MYSTERIOUSLY DISAPPEARS
I felt this way a while back, but it didn’t actually register until this year. I don’t know why I’m like this. It’s not that I even became this way on purpose. I am working on this flaw of mine to not shrink back when I’m with others.
I DO NOT LIKE STICKING TO A ROUTINE
I used to like it, but now I realize that one of the reasons why I get so antsy and moody every once in a while is because I secretly crave to do things on a whim sometimes. I enjoy switching things up daily and not sticking to one particular routine. This is why I’ve also avoided setting times to do tasks (unless of course other people are involved and a meeting is scheduled), and simply making a list of what I needed to do. I found myself actually completing these tasks on the days that I planned on completing them while feeling relaxed and happy.
IT IS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO NOT OFFER ADVICE OR GUIDANCE TO A FRIEND WHO CONFIDES IN ME
I say this because a friend confided in me and I felt so bad about not knowing how to help them, and they mentioned that just listening already helps a lot. And I completely understand that, but I guess it’s just in me to help ease the burdens from their shoulders by actually doing something more than just listening. But, if it truly helps them to quietly listen, I’d do my best to respect that.
Everyone is going to constantly learn things about themselves, and that’s one beauty of life.
We’re not made of stone. We’re not born with a chip that enables a limited and certified number of traits we’ll possess in our lifetime.
Sometimes we may be persuaded by our environment and those around us. But, at the end of the day, it is our own self that chooses the decisions we make in life. Every decision made leads to lessons or blessings, or both. Either way, you’re always going to be learning, healing, and growing.
And as the saying goes: we only live once.
Make this life worth living.