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Anxiety | Endings And Beginnings


I’m often scared and tired at the same time;

I constantly wonder if I did something wrong or if other people are mad at me;

I do look for reassurance, but I don’t want others to think I’m annoying or needy;

I have a deep fear of failure, but I often lack the motivation to be productive;

I fantasize about how I would want a relationship to be;

I would love to have a tight-knit group of friends, but I wouldn’t say I like socializing;

I often feel as if I’m out of place;

I enjoy alone time, but I don’t like feeling lonely;

I fixate on the worst-case scenario;

I say sorry even when it’s not my fault;

I often feel like a burden to others;

I often feel overwhelmed about the future;

I overthink and dwell on the smallest things;

I get overwhelmed, burnt out, irritated;

I constantly feel behind in life;

I know what to do but I don’t know how to give myself that push;

I feel everything and nothing at the same time.

And when things get even tougher…

I zone out a lot;

I snap at even the most minor things;

I grip firmly at whatever is closest to me;

I need more reassurance;

I play with my fingers;

And through it all…

I promise I’m trying.

I’m trying to be the best version of myself I can be.

I’m working on healing.

I can’t guarantee that I can eliminate all of these thoughts and feelings, especially not all at once and within a couple of months.

But to anyone who comes into my circle, please know that I’m trying.

And I ask for your patience and understanding.

Because it’s become a challenge to welcome new people into my life.

And when I do…

It means that I’m willing to let a couple of layers of my walls down when I’m with them and that they are someone I would be afraid to lose.

Keep being inspired and take care always,


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