I frantically throw things around my room.
My arms wrap around my head as the temperature rises.
I can’t feel the rest of my body.
Everything is becoming numb.
Why am I even doing this?
Everyone else is better than I am.
I don’t know why I try.
If I stop now, I can probably save myself from embarrassment.
If I stop now, I can save my dignity.
My reputation.
What reputation?
Oh right,
The reputation that I have yet to build.
If it’s even worth building.
Am I worth being built?
I hurryingly throw things around my room.
I bite my lips in nervousness.
Why am I even doing this?
Everyone else is waiting for me.
But, I have to try right?
If I keep going, I can see what I’m truly capable of.
If I keep going, I can strengthen my dignity.
My reputation.
What reputation?
Oh right,
The reputation that is rising faster than it has ever been.
Because I am worth building.
